Last summer I had the wonderful
opportunity of traveling to Jamaica with the Jamaica Field Service Project to
do music therapy work in a homeless shelter, infirmary, and school for children
with special needs. I didn’t begin clinical work until the next semester, so
that trip was full learning how to facilitate sessions, work with clients, work
with other student therapists, and observe how other people work with clients.
It was a fantastic learning experience that I wouldn’t trade for anything. I
learned much more about the field and myself as a music therapist in ten days
than I thought was possible.
This trip is different. Now, I am
much more familiar with the profession and I have a greater understanding of how
to work with clients after a year of clinical experience. But my greatest
struggle has been FEAR. That fear comes from a lot of different places, but
most of it stems from cultural differences. I do not speak Thai. I do not know
Thai customs. I do not know a plethora of Thai songs. I do not, therefore, feel
qualified to lead a Thai music therapy session.
But guess what! I DON’T HAVE A
CHOICE! I have to help lead sessions! (Which I really am grateful for. My fear
has just clouded my gratitude a few times…)
The first two sessions I
participated in were with older adults (one in a hospital and one in a rehabilitation
center). This past year I worked in two different clinical settings with
older adults, so going in I thought, “This will be a piece of cake!” Then, the
sessions started. The Thai students were speaking Thai. They sang songs in Thai
that I did not know. And I realized I did not know what was appropriate or not
appropriate for a music therapy session with Thai older adults. MY FEAR HAD
ARRIVED. And what did I do? I let it overcome me. I sat there, didn’t take a
risk, and used none of the knowledge I had from the past year.
Then came the day for my individual
clinical setting with a teenager diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorders at
the rehabilitation center. Before going in, I thought to myself “Haley, you
need to place those fears aside and trust yourself.” (I repeated this multiple
times throughout the session as well…) Dr. Register had mentioned many times
that music is not just about the words—speaking
Thai is not critical, because wonderful things can happen using music with
English, Thai, or no words at all. Of course, this is much easier to hear and
much harder to fully accept, but I went into the session ready to give it my
best. At one point in the session, I took a risk. I decided to ignore my fears
and choose an intervention I thought might be effective for the client. AND IT
WORKED. I didn’t need to speak Thai! The session was a success not just because
I jumped over that hurdle, but also because the client was engaged throughout
the session. Her entire demeanor had changed and positive interactions were made.
Since then, we have had many class discussions
on the topic of fear. Fear can be crippling, but by overcoming a fear, we can
become empowered by that experience! That is the same for our clients as well.
Many of the clients I will work with will also have fears, so it is my job to
help them overcome them and leave empowered and motivated.
While dwelling on the thought of
fear, I found this perfect quote: “Don’t let your fear of what could happen make nothing happen” –Doe Zantamata
Like so many of the other life
lessons I have learned on this trip, it doesn’t just apply to my life in
Thailand, but also to my life back in the States. Soon, I will be back in
America where I can speak English with most people I encounter. I will be
familiar with the customs. And I can sing a lot more songs. But fear will never
fully go away; it will just present itself in different forms. It is my job,
then, to overcome that fear and accomplish what I might not think is possible.
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